Now what.

So maybe I love waking up early to go get a Christmas tree in the bitter cold wind, and listening to a mix cd and my mother reading Pagan Christianity? out loud on the way (Yes I did italicize that book title. MLA has been revised everyone, it has been revised). I love this mix CD I have made. It goes from "Kids" to "Psalm" in 16 songs. And it is wonderful. And the book is kind of interesting too. But between that, the Bible, and some other books I've been reading, it sounds as if we are doing life and Christianity all wrong. Which is scary. But it is hopeful too. Because I do feel in my heart that there must be a better way! So, I was grumpy, it was the morning, I was eating a granola bar and listening to the music. We went up to the woods like we always do, as a family, to cut down a Christmas tree. It was very cold though. On the way back, our van got stuck in the mud and the ice. I wish I had taken a picture! We all had to push! At one point, I had to drive. It was scary, but finally we got our van out of the rough spot. We were very muddy and cold, but happy.
Then we visited our Grammy who mostly speaks nonsense now.
Then I went to this amazing Christmas party with amazing friends.
Soon I will dance the night away with a bunch of nerdy IB people. I will leave you all with a quote from our Sunday school's Christmas video:
"Tonight is Christmas and I hate Christmas because my parents left me when I was just a kid. I guess I'll go sleep by this garbage can."

It's December

What is going on in my life right now... recently some friends and I got together to have a tea party for my birthday. It was wild. Wow, I am eighteen already. I feel as if I have to be more responsible or something.
And it's time to choose what I want to do. So many people, when they hear that I am close to graduating, ask me what I will do next year. I just tell them I will go to university. I guess I have some pretty good ideas, but I just don't like to tell people in case they judge me. That's probably a really bad thing to think, but whatever. Besides, if I just tell people I will go to university, it gives them an opportunity to give me advice. I like advice. But, I am pretty much at peace with this college thing. I am not panicking.
Meanwhile, I got an iTunes gift card for my birthday. So that was really exciting. Some songs I downloaded: